spiderman

Two day back maam is tell me Sally we going to see spiderman you also come. First I thinking she taking me for the movie spiderman. First time movie with this maam. I quite excite. Then she showing me in paper that this man going to climb up burj khalifa. From outside. Not in lift. Like a spiderman. It so scary. How he climbing like that? I getting scare if I climb on ladder to wash window. Maam saying Sally he using rope for support so he not falling. Then I feeling it so boring to go see this but I getting chance to go to mall. So I also going.

Rayan most excite. He asking his mama if man wearing spiderman clothes. He asking is he real spiderman? Whole time he jumping he so excite. Even maam excite. From 4 oclock she is waiting to see if he really climbing or it all rubbish news. She checking on computer. She calling friend. Then at 6 she saying ok he start climbing let us go. 

By the time we reaching it dark. Everyone standing near fountain but looking up. We also looking up. Everyone asking where he where he? I thinking why all this people is coming here to see him do this? All this people must be so bore in their life that they getting excite by seeing this? by seeing nothing.

Then Sir is seeing this light on burj khalifa. It so very high. Like one dot. He saying look Sara look Rayan there he is. Rayan starting to cry. He saying I not see him. Maam is take out her camera and do zoom and show everyone. All people around maam is ask where he where he? Maam is feeling very important. She showing everyone.

Next day I reading in paper that spiderman reaching top after many hour. But I also read in same paper that one boy is jumping from window because he fail in school exam. because his mother crying. He thinking he not having mother support because she crying. He thinking he letting her down. 

I thinking how life is. One man climbing up building to be in paper. other boy is jumping down from building and come in paper. Whole time I thinking why this man and this boy is risk his life? Both is in paper. Both is knowing that they can die. But they both different. 

Spiderman trying not to die. He having rope for support. Boy is trying to die. He thinking he not having support.

It lucky that both not die.

shopping

I telling you now how we going for shopping to spinney or carefour. If we going carefour then maam is say Sally you start shopping. I just coming. Then she just coming in one hour maybe sometime more also. But I not minding because I am able to talk with all my other filipina kabayan. And I able to do my own shopping also. I buying all thing to put in my boxes to send home. Like shoes and school bag and scarf and dress.

If we not going carefour then going next to house spinney. Then also maam is drop me sometime and she going to do her toes nail or her eyebrow wax and then she coming to pay. But sometime she coming with me and staying whole time. Like today. I not liking so much when she with me whole time because I not able to talk my friend. 

Maam is push one cart. I push other cart. If maam cart very heavy or it get stuck she changing cart with me. She saying Sally my back is hurt you push. If only one cart then only I pushing. Today maam is meet her friend inside Spinney and she talking talking. Full time. and I am do shopping. When she done talking she ask me Sally what else left on list? I telling her whole list finish. My shopping cart is so full. Maam cart only having bread and egg. When maam is paying I am thinking she is paying one time shopping at Spinney more than half my salary. That much. I thinking if I shopping that much I having so many box to send to Philippine.

After we paying we going car and maam opening the backside and we putting all thing in. Maam is help me but only with bread and thing like that. All heavy thing like water I am lift and put in.Then we going home and maam is help me to taking bag in. But again not heavy bag. But it ok. Atleast she helping me. In my before house maam just give me car key and tell me Sally bring everything. 

Like that we going one time in week and buying lot of thing. then maam sending me walking in evening to buy only milk bread. thing that getting over.

Sometime I thinking I want to go shop without maam. If I ask my maam she  always letting me go out in evening if there no work. But sometime I feeling scare or shy to ask her to go to shop so I doing like this. When we go Spinney I having list. but I on purpose forget to buy something. Like ketchup. something not so important but you needing it. Then I telling maam I forget ketchup. Maam saying ok Sally you go for walk in evening you bring it. Then I going buying ketchup and talking my friend. Mostly it working.

But one time I forget to forget anything. And I wanting to go to shop. I telling maam I am getting my menses suddenly and I needing to buy napkins. Maam saying Sally why you not having any napkin at home? what you will do if you getting menses middle of night? Why you not keeping? She saying we busy today how you will go? Then maam giving me her full napkin packet. She say next time Sally you buy and keep. but this time you use this.

Now I not able to go out so I feeling sad. But I also feeling bad because I am lie to maam and she give me her thing. But I can not tell her I lie. so I keeping napkin. It very nice expensive type. First I thinking I will use for me next time. Then I thinking of my mama. She never using anything nice. So I putting maam napkin in my box to send to Philippine for her. Like that I am doing sacrifice for my mama.

Shopping cart always so full when we doing shopping. Now even all my box getting full. I hoping my mother is realise that my boxes full of my sacrifice for my family. Because my heart full of love for my family.

night out

When I going holiday I going always Friday morning and coming back night time. When I am first coming this maam house I asking her maam can I go on Thursday night for my holiday? Maam is tell me Sally you my responsibilty I can not let you go in night. if something happen to you then I be responsible.  I so new that time I not say any thing. I thinking at least I can take holiday when I am wanting. At Oman place I not going holiday for two years. And at before maam I am waiting so many month before I able to ask for holiday. So I keeping quiet.

But few day back my friend Diana is having this idea. She saying Sally we going out Thursday night. It good we can be meeting some more friend. Maybe even meeting some boys. Diana so new here in Dubai. She wanting to meet all new people. I also thinking it be fun if I be going out. So I telling my maam I wanting to go to my cuzzin in Sharja Thursday night. I tell her I am having to pack my box for Philippine I needing time. Maam is say Sally you having full day Friday to do your box why you need to go Thursday night? I telling her I having lot of thing to pack and my cuzzin having time on Thursday night to be helping me.

My maam is saying No Sally I not letting you go to Sharja at night. suppose something is happen to you? I telling her no maam you not worry. I know car lift boy he not do anything. But she saying no Sally please no argue with me. I not allowing you to spend night outside. She then saying Sally sir and I going out Thursday night so how you can go? who will stay with children?

Then she going her room and I hearing her calling sir. I shock what she say. She saying Sally wanting to go out at night and I telling her no. because all this maid is going and sleeping with all people then getting pregnate and blaming the sir. She saying no worry I taking control of situation. I telling her no going at night.

I am so angry she thinking like this. She not trust me?  I thinking after that day when water man is come and I am out of house without telling her she becoming very not trusting. Like example. First she always ringing bell when she coming home. After water man day she always coming with key. Maybe she think she catching me doing something. 

I am so angry she think like this I wanting to leave this job. But I just going to my room. For two day I not doing too much work. I not talking maam. I just banging thing and when maam is ask anything I not answer properly. Maam is knowing I upset but she not say anything. I thinking maybe she changing her mind and letting me go but she not say to me Sally you can go on Thursday night. 

Today morning Maam is giving me big bag with all clothes for my box. She saying Sally you can send all this to Philippine in your box. She thinking she making up with me by giving me this. I telling her thank you but I wanting to shout and scream at her. 

But I keeping it all inside. Just like maam keeping me inside on Thursday night.

teeth problem

Few week back Maam is getting new piano teacher for children. Sara is not like her. She all the time is compare her to old piano teacher. She all the time arguing maam saying she not wanting to go piano class. She making too much noise. Too much fuss.

Maam saying Sara not to worry. this because piano teacher is new. She saying Sara these all teething problem. soon you will be getting use to teacher and be liking teacher. I thinking if piano teacher having teeth problem why she not going dentist?

When I am at my before sir house even I am having teeth problem.  I telling my before maam to take me to dentist. Dentist is saying my tooth having too much bad thing. He saying he doing root canal. My before maam is tell me Sally root canal very expensive. She say I paying for tooth remove not for root canal. I telling dentist you pull it out because I not want pay. Dentist saying are you sure you not wanting to save teeth?

To be saving teeth I having to use my money that I saving to send to Philippine. I telling him remove tooth. When dentist is pull it out it is hurting me so bad. So I am knowing all about this teething problem. I feeling sad for piano teacher. But I not understand why Sara not liking her because her teeth is giving problem. Maybe piano teacher also needing to remove this teeth that give problem.

When Rayan tooth is falling out maam is make him put teeth under pillow. She saying teeth fairy coming and taking teeth and giving money. When we small my mama she making us throwing teeth on roof of house.  She saying that the mouse taking teeth away from the roof. Then when new teeth is coming it be so strong. Just like mouse teeth. When we small we believing that. Now I thinking how mouse is take away teeth? Where all this teeth is going? Maybe if I going on roof I seeing lot of teeth.

But maybe if mouse taking away piano teacher teeth then piano teacher not having teeth problem. Maybe then Sara also stop making fuss for piano and be quiet like mouse.

new old friend

I am so excite. My old friend from school in Davao is move here. Her name Diana. She calling me one day she saying Sally it Diana how you are. She telling me she working 4 year in saudi but now is work here in Dubai. I saying really Diana where you living? When she telling me I get so excite. I saying Diana you living next street to me. I so happy I wanting to go meet her at that time only. Maam is gone school so I quicky running to next street just to see if she really there. We talking quickly few minute then I going back before maam is come.

I telling maam my friend is move next street. She saying good Sally now you having old friend near you. Maam then tell me Sally if you finish your work you can go meet her. She not know I already is meet her. So I quickly doing my work and going again Diana house. Diana maam work full day so Diana home with little baby. I taking Diana and baby to park. All my friend here saying Sally now you having old friend here you forgetting all your new friend? I saying how I can do that? All you friend in park is like my sister. we sharing so many thing.

When Diana and I small also we sharing many thing. Like if Diana getting chocolate she keeping for me.  Diana always having more thing than me. When her daddy is giving her money for uso-uso jeepney Diana is going walking sometime and not use money. Then we going buying ice cream.  She always have big heart she share everything with me.

Even now Diana very fashionous. She having so many clothes. She everyday wearing some new thing. I telling her Diana how you having so much money to buying clothes. She saying Sally I spending all my earn money on me. Diana not having any husband or child. Her mother also doing house maid work many year in singapore. So Diana not having support any person. She so lucky. I feeling little jealous of Diana.

I telling her Diana maybe if I going on my holiday I wearing your thing? She saying Sally you become so fat now you not fit in my thing. But I thinking I can still be using her shoe and her bag. But she not saying anything so even I not say anything. I telling her maybe Diana we going holiday together. We can sharing carlift and all. But she still not saying anything. I understanding she not wanting to share her thing any more.

I hoping Diana is remember how she share her thing with me when she is small girl.  I am hope she is share her thing with me again. Because I thinking I liking my old friend Diana more than this new old friend Diana.