moving truck

Yesterday on our street there are three moving truck. Whole street is block. So many people is moving. Some moving to other house in Dubai only. Like my one friend who living in villa 4. Her name Karen. Her maam moving to big new villa so she also having to go. She very happy because in new villa the maid room is outside of house. Not inside like over here. She able to go out when she wanting to go. Her maam is not having so much control on her.

Some other people is moving to other country. Maybe London or america. Maybe singapore. Like that. All the thing in the house is pack up in so many box and they putting it in the truck. I thinking if I having to go back to Philippine I only having one or two box. I not needing full truck like this. 

Even if I wanting to buy some thing I know I not able to take it back to my home country. Like one time I am wanting to buy a tv for my mother. I thinking I buy and send by cargo. At the time of Dubai Shopping Festival. I tell my maam. Maam is tell me Sally if you sending tv then you paying so much money for sending it by cargo. Why you not just send money to philippine and let them buy tv there? 

But she not understanding. I am wanting to send gift to my family. I am wanting them to open door and see this big tv and be surprise who it coming from. And if I sending money for tv to my mother maybe she is using money for something else. not tv. But maam always put this doubt in my brain so now I not wanting to buy anything big. Because how I will take it back home?

When I going back to Philippine from Oman I am taking only one bag on plane. I am so scare how much the weight of bag is. One girl is tell me only 20 kilo is allow. Other is tell me only 15 kilo is allow. And hand luggage only 7 kilo. No one know how much is allow and how much you have to pay. But they know you are not able to take too much weight.

Imagine you working for two year you having so many thing. But you only able to take back 15 or 20 kilo. You wanting to buy so many thing to take home but you are not able to take it back. I am so careful when I do packing to go back from Oman. I put everything else in a box to send by cargo. Then my Oman sir is saying Sally I sending your box after you go. I so stupid I believe him. but he never sending it. Imagine everything I am buying is just thrown in garbage by my Oman sir. so now I not wanting to buy so many thing. Suppose I have to leave it all again when I go?

When we coming here to work we leaving our family in philippines. We feeling so very sad. We are so homesick. Our heart is paining. Then slowly the family of our maam and sir is become like our family. The children of our maam and sir is like our own son or daughter. I feel like I knowing Rayan more than I knowing my own son and brother and sister. I knowing his full day how it is. Where he going. what he doing. what he eating. why he crying. I not knowing all this detail even of my own son.

So when we leaving our job and going back we leaving not only our things but also little bit like we leaving our family. Almost like when we coming here from Philippine.  That how life of house maid is. We having to say bye to our things and our family and our friend when we leaving. Always leaving everything and everyone behind. when we going from philippine or from dubai.

That why we not needing moving truck when we leaving. Because we leaving everything behind when we go. So our luggage is not heavy. The only thing that is heavy is maybe our heart. And you cannot send that on a moving truck.

lock and key

I am not writing my blog story for so many days. That because maam is going vacation. When she is going she is locking room of computer. First time she doing this. I not know why. Maybe she is suspect me. When she telling me she is going for two weeks I was so excited. I thinking I am able to do my blog everyday. 

Then she locking the room before going. I am so disappoint. She say Sally you not needing to clean this room everyday so I locking it. My heart is so sad. Even Lilibeth is going vacation. so I am not able to use  her computer. And I too scare to ask Maria because she is so materalistic. and she not my true friend. Maybe she telling my maam then I am in big trouble. Now the room is lock. so computer is lock. Blog is lock. And I not having key so all my words is lock.

I not tell you before that I am renew my contrac with this maam. Maam is tell me Sally you can go your vacation to Philippine when I going for my vacation. I thinking why I will want to do that? When my maam is going away then I am having so much free time. I am having vacation here also. So I telling her I not wanting to go for vacation just now. Maybe later time. 

Maam saying Sally if you not wanting to go I can give you ticket money instead. She quite happy I not wanting to go. I telling maam that I not knowing if I want to do that. If I take money it be good for me. but then I not seeing my family for four years. Two for first contrac and two for next contrac. That so much time. Maam telling me Sally you think and tell me what you want to do. I am thinking maybe I going vacation for christmas time.

When maam is going for her vacation two of my friends is leaving Dubai. They not coming back to Dubai because their maam is not renew contrac. So we not see them again. We doing party at park for these two girls before they go. I am making cake at home and taking. Maam is not there so I not having to ask her. Everyone is taking pictures. We making a card for them.  We having good party. It is lot of fun.

Then at the end of party everyone is writing their phone number. but I know no one will phone because it cost so much money to phone from here. If they phoning Philippine then they phoning their own family. not some other friend. So party is fun but it so sad also. Because these two girls is gone from our life forever. Remember I tell you before that these friend we having here in Dubai are all BFV.  Best Friend for Visa. Not BFF Best Friend Forever like Sara calling all her friend. I saying bye to them forever.

Yesterday maam and sir is coming back with children. Maam is bringing me small gift. But the bigger gift she bringing me is the key. for room with computer. The key for my words. 

No prize

Yesterday there is story in paper about ugliest dog in the world. I telling maam that this dog is look like a rat. Imagine this rat dog is getting picture in paper. So lucky it is. It is winning a prize because it ugly. It is in paper because it ugly. I thinking of the owner of dog. Imagine what he feeling when he win this prize. I do not think I want to win prize for the ugliest dog in world.

I also read story about these maid who never getting day off. Not even one day in so many year. I know how that feeling because I am in that situation in my before jobs. Imagine I only going outside house to put garbage. 

In this house I feeling a little free. Not so free because I still having to tell my maam I going out. but she not stop me. I going to park for jog. or to meet my friends. sometime I going choitram or spinney. No problem with this maam in this thing. Some month ago I make mistake and go without telling her. Then she get upset. But now I realising my mistake so I always telling her

This maam also not keeping my passport like other places. My passport in cupboard with her and sir passport. but cupboard is not lock. I knowing where she keeping it. Maam is show me. She saying Sally you keep it here so it not get lost or spoil. She not locking it like at my other place. She only keep it for it to be safe.

My one friend Jenny is in big problem. Her contrac is over. She is wanting to go back to her home this month. Her maam is lock her passport. Now her maam is tell her that passport is lost. So now Jenny is not able to go. She is crying so much. I tell Jenny that I thinking her maam is hide passport. how she can lose it? But Jenny is in this bad situation now. She not have her passport. She not able to leave Dubai. She have no choice but to renew contrac for two more years. Poor Jenny. Her maam is not only lock passport. She is also lock Jenny.

I trying to understand why some maam is lock passport. Maybe they scare that maid steal thing. or maybe do something bad to children. and then run away. The maam is think that passport is like garantee for maid. so she not do something bad and run away. If maid is run away then the maam having lot of problem. She having to find new maid. She having to pay lot of money for sponsor new maid. So she keeping passport. To have control on maid. To stop maid from do something bad. 

But sometime the maid is running because the maam or sir is do something bad. And because she not having her passport she not having any choice. Because she not able to end her contrac or change her maam she not having choice. She have to run away and hide.

See how it is. Passport is lock so good maid running from bad maam. or bad maid running from good maam. Both situation is bad. There is no good solution in this situation. It is a lock situation just like passport is lock. Just because passport is lock.

The person who has ugliest dog is win a prize. But there is no prize for the maam who has the worst maid. or the maid who has the worst maam. There is no prize and no hope in this situation.

guest room

I am not able to write for many day. That because we having many guest. First maam mother is coming. Then maam sister is coming. When there is guest there lot of work. And sometime guest is not leave house only. Like maam mother. Then I not getting chance to do my story. 

This last guest is make me very worry. Because she not guest like real guest. She is a maid. Her maam is my maam friend. She is going vacation so she leave her maid here. I not liking this girl.  Her name Anita. She very clever. But not in good way. She is complain to my maam about me. Imagine she sleeping in my house and she complaining to my maam. She say Sally not clean this properly I cleaning it for you. I getting so angry I wanting to slap her. Maam is not say anything. I think maam know how this Anita is thinking.

I tell you why I not liking her. Anita sleeping on floor in my room. It like my room is guest room. My room so small but I making space for her. For one week we sharing room. And bathroom. Like we are married. When she sleeping on floor there no room for me to walk to go to bathroom at night. So I not going to bathroom full night. so I not disturb her. I thinking she only here for one week. I not wanting to trouble her.

But now she trouble me. She see me one day when I going on computer. I thinking she inside bathroom so I am quickly going to write. She say that she telling my maam. if I saying anything to her. How she can be so mean?

When maam is going out she is sitting on maam sofa and watch TV whole time. Even I not doing that. I watching little but I also doing my work. But she not do any work. When maam coming home she act like she doing all work. I not able to complain to my maam because Anita is see me on computer.

At my before sir house also other maid is coming to stay when the maam is going out. One time this girl is coming for one month. Imagine. Her maam is going London for one month and she not wanting maid to stay with her husband. So she leaving her in my maam house. One full month. But atleast she is a nice girl. She helping me lots with kitchen work and cleaning. so I not minding. 

I remember one scandal story. My friend Susan is tell me this. Her neighbour maam going to her home country for summer vacation. Maid is stay home with husband. This maid is getting pregnate. no one is know if it husband or some other person. Maid say husband is make her pregnate. Imagine how this maam is feeling. She go for holiday and she come back to this scandal. She not even listen her husband side of story. she just do divorce and go to her home country. No one is know if it husband fault or maid fault. But that maam always think it her own fault for leave them alone. And the marriage is broke.

Today Anita is go back home. I am happy that this marriage is broke. 

Do not touch

Something is happen today that is make me very disturb. I am going to park for my walk. Like I going every day. In park there is swimming pool. Whole pool is empty. Only one child is there. Her maid also doing swimming little. In her clothes only. They just standing at one side and child is doing splash with maid.

Then one maam is come. She is complain to lifeguard. She saying how this maid is allow inside pool? I feeling so angry. What this maam is thinking? That we dirty? That we not take bath? That we making whole pool dirty with our germ? It like house maid is having big sign on her clothes. Do not touch. 

I not able to say anything but I just watch. Lifeguard is tell maid to come out. Now child is swim by herself in pool. It so dangerous. Child is only like maybe 3 or 4. Then child is crying because she not wanting to swim herself. Then the maam who is complain is get upset. She tell maid to take child home because child is disturb everyone by crying.

But that maam is not realise that actually she is disturb everyone by making maid come out of pool. Poor child and maid is going home. And this maam is then only sleep in sun at side of pool. She not even going inside the pool. Imagine she making them come out but she not going inside. 

This do not touch thing so common. In my before sir house also they never letting me go inside their pool. They having pool inside garden. My just now maam is not take me to pool because she not like to go to pool. But she let me eat and drink in her plate and her glass and spoon. I having my own plate and spoon also but she not saying anything if I use her plate and spoon.

Even washing machine. At my before sir house and oman sir house they not allow me to use washing machine for my clothes. They say Sally you do hand washing your clothes. But here my maam is let me use washing machine. At my before sir house some time when I so tired of doing hand washing I  am using the washing machine when my maam is go out. No one is knowing this. 

All these maam who not let us touch these thing is not understand that this thinking is so stupid. I am doing clean of whole house. I am feeding children. I am cooking food and packing children lunch. I am washing fruit and cut it with same hand. That all ok but if I go inside the pool it bad? 

These maam is not want us in pool because they think we are not clean. But actually the mind of these maam is not clean. Because if you having clean mind you never thinking like this.