May 29, 2012

sand

Few days back I am going to Spinneys with maam. I am seeing this man. He is worker on the road. He is wearing orange uniform. I call him orange man. He is working in so hot weather I feel so sad for him. Even maam is saying this poor man how can he work like this. When I tell you what work he is doing you will think that he is gone mad. But he is not mad. The person who is giving him this work is mad.

His work is this. He has a small brush broom. He is doing sweeping of the road. Of the sand on the road. If you are not living in Dubai you do not understand why this is so mad. This is so mad because Dubai is sand. Everywhere you are looking there is sand. If you sweep it there is more sand. How can this man sweep the road? It is not possible. Even if you have very big vacum you are not able to remove all this sand in Dubai.

I am full time thinking of this orange man and the sand. He is not mad. but he will become mad if he have to do this job in this hot weather.

This orange man is reminding me of a something. In Dubai you can buy this sand bottle. I have put a picture on my facebook page if you want to see what it looks like. It is a bottle with sand design in it. Different colour sand to make all design. Like design of camel. Design of desert. design of Dubai. They can even write your name in the sand. It is so pretty. But when I look at this sand camel inside this bottle it is like the camel is trap. inside the bottle. Like it can never escape.

The orange man is also trap. He cannot break contract because he will go to jail. He is trap inside his contract like the camel is trap inside the bottle. He is not able to stop sweeping the sand even if he knows he can never make the road clean.

The only way for the camel to come out of the bottle is to break the bottle. But when the bottle is broken the camel and the sand will be all mixed up. The beautiful design in the bottle will be a big mess of sand.

That is why the orange man has no choice. He has to keep sweeping the sand on the road. Even though he can never make it clean. He cannot break the bottle. He has to remain trap inside this bottle. So the design of his life is not mess up.

May 20, 2012

Mothers Day

Last week it was mothers day. Rayan and Sara wake up early and make breakfast for maam. I help them. They make toast and cheese. Maam is so happy. She say best breakfast ever. They make cards for maam. Maam say best card ever. They buy flowers for maam. Maam say best flowers ever. In the night maam say Sara and Rayan that was the best mothers day ever. Last year she say the same thing. Everyone is happy. 

Even I am mother. No one is wish me for mothers day. I am looking after Sara and Rayan. but I am not their mother. No one is even remembering that I am also a mother. because my child is so far from me. No one buy me flowers or make for me breakfast. No one make for me a card. It is not best mothers day ever for me.

Last month I am reading in paper that there is this lady in Sharjah who is throwing her baby in the garbage chute. Because she is not married. Same story we are reading so many times. Because if you are having baby here without being marry you are going to jail. And deport. The baby is living thanks to God. This lady is become a mother now because she has a baby. But she is a bad mother. Actually I think she is not a mother. Because a mother will not throw away her baby.

I am not a bad mother. I am leaving my child far away. But I am not like this Sharjah lady. I am not throwing my child. I am leaving him with his father. Because I have to work. So I can look after my child. But even if I am far away from him I will always be his mother. Even if I am not there when he sleeps I can help him have his dreams.

Maam say it is the best mothers day ever. It is not best mothers day ever for me. For me the best mothers day ever was the day I become a mother. Happy Mothers day to all mothers in the world.

May 7, 2012

super moon

On Saturday in the sky the moon is so big. Maam is explain me that it is super moon. full moon that is very near the earth. It is looking like a big yellow ball.

Super moon is making me think of this story. Few week back in paper I am reading that there is this man. in Ajman. It is also in UAE. He is so old maybe 65 or 70. He is having 14 or 15 wife. But because only 4 wife is legal he say the other wifes is retire. Really. He say that in paper. Retire.

In paper they write that he is doing honeymoon with his youngest wife. She is 19 year old. And he is doing sex with her 6 times in a day. 6 times. So he can have many children. He is wanting to have 100 children. He is already having 93  children. In the paper they call him super daad. Like super dad but his name is Daad. So super daad. He is not even remembering the name of all his children.  I am thinking that superdaad is the one who need to retire. Not his wifes.

This super moon on Saturday make me think of super daad. On his honeymoon. 6 times in a day. 6 times. Super Daad. Super moon. Super honeymoon.