Jan 22, 2011
In her shoe
Since I have come to Dubai I becoming fat. Even my father he very fat when he alive. What to do I liking food. I looking at my picture when I is in Philippine and I thinking how I become like this? I am doing so much hard work but I still be fat. I looking like a baboy. a fat pig. I telling my mother on mobile that I have become fat. She shouting at me. She say Sally what you are doing? How you will get marry?
My maam is not fat. She very thin. All time she is exercise. She having walking machine at home and also she going lot to gym. I think even I want to exercise. So some week back when she is going to school to pick up children I think I will be using the walking machine. I have watch maam do it before. I try for few minute. but then I feeing it so boring. Just walking walking doing nothing else. But I thinking better be bore than be fat. So I keep on walking. When maam is going on machine later I hearing her ask sir why all setting is change. I getting scare then that she will know. She not suspect me. Now I scare to go on machine again.
But I still is still fat. So now I am doing jog. Not on machine. Outside. I go in evening when maam is taking children to tennis class or karate class or swim class. I telling maam and going. It not a secret. But my shoe is hurting me. My one friend she tell me she doing shoe business. she say she selling shoe for 100 dirham but she giving me for 95. She even showing me picture on mobile. I thinking I will get Puma shoe. I always wanting Puma. I so happy I telling maam. She saying Sally where she getting this Puma shoe? I thinking maybe even maam want. I telling her she having contac on ship and she will order Puma for me. Then maam saying all is fake Sally you not buy from her. It not good to be buying fake. How she knowing it fake she not seeing them. She not even seeing picture on mobile. And how I getting Puma otherwise? I really wanting this shoe now. I not care it fake. But I not order it because maam is putting dout in my head.
Now I is having no shoe and no machine. So I still is fat. I cannot do jog without shoe. I thinking on my next holiday I buying shoe. Maybe not Puma but something else. I wishing my maam shoe size same as my size but after last experence with slipper I not wanting to ask her for shoe. I not even wanting to borrow her shoe.
Some week ago my maam reading a book call In Her Shoe. I asking maam what it about. Why it is call In her Shoe? Maam is explain that it like a saying. She say in a person shoe mean you want to feel what other person feeling.
I thinking maam needing to be in my shoe. Then she knowing how much I wanting the Puma shoe. And I needing to be in maam shoe. because then I am able to buy real Puma.