Jan 20, 2011
My grandmother is ask me why you no marry Richie. She say Richie love you. He waiting for you. I telling her if Richie be love me he change his habit. Richie is father of my son. He is look after my son. So I always care for him. But I not want to marry him. Because he not how you say responsble. He not having good job. He drink lot. He always telling me not to give money my mama and brother and sister. He say Sally now you have son. You have to think about your own self and your son. How I know he not saying that only for my money? I is working hard here for all my family. My mama and brothers and sisters. How I can abandon my family for him?
My maam is also say Sally you have to think of yourself. She tell me open bank account. I telling her one friend of mine she opening account then when she going back Philippine all money gone. Maam saying that not possible what kind of bank it is? I not know what kind of bank I only know that it better no bank. I keeping money and then I sending to my mother. She is telling me she buying house for me soon. My maam saying Sally be careful no let your mother sign all paper for house. You need to do yourself so it in your name. But how I can do if I is here? My mother telling me Sally the house be in your name why you worry. She no cheat me. But my maam is put dout in my head so I is waiting till I going back.
Maybe one day even I is getting marry. Maybe Richie. Maybe some other boy. All girl want get marry. Even me. when we is get marry they saying till death do us part. I thinking that is like endless love. I reading story of husband and wife who getting marry. wife is die and husband also dying in few day. I thinking that true love. Like in my pocketbook.
In my life I not knowing if Richie is my endless love. Maybe he waiting for me. But I is the one who waiting. for him to change.